Faint lights

"Our hearts are all barricaded and the poisons will decorate it. I want to know love, I want to be where you are ..."

I was searching for You all along.

My hands clenched tighter as I prepared myself to face the world alone.
The light in my eyes flickered, constantly searching for a light strong enough to hold my gaze.
My arms were outstretched, looking for someone strong enough to hold me up.
Broken confidence left me shaking with fear.
My heart cried out for the hole to be filled,
for the emptiness to finally be brought to an end.


And passing through, I missed You.
So blinded by Your light, I was unaware.
Motionless steps, words emptied of truth, unsuccessful striving.
I chose the faint lights Lord, for they were all that I knew.

Skimming the surface, 

I drowned out your melodious song with the noise of my own.

Driving through,
I passed the signs hidden beneath the obvious.
I moved through creation never stopping to question the Creator.

I trailed after the world.

Buying into the idea that I wanted to fit into this brokenness, 

the jagged edges tore.

So desperately wanting a place to belong, 

I smoothed my wrinkles and cracks to appear worthy.

Continuously striving, I never found rest until You.

Blasting the dim lights off my path, You came.
Your rays shone into my weary heart and I arose to strength.
A shield wound its way around my heart,
defense from the world yet a door open for Your majesty to enter.


Distant lights are but a memory,
for the true Light of my heart has broken through.
Destroying strongholds,
cradling a heavy heart,
restoring a center of peace tossed to the wind,
solidifying the honor I stand for,
You hold me now and forevermore.


Light leads me.
Love guides me.
Angels protects me.
You, Lord, heal me.


Driven by a love for the Light,
my mission is set:
To bring Your brilliance to life in this heart tonight,
to stand abandoned to the Light who calls me by name,
to proclaim the Light who has stolen my heart is my only desire.


Faint lights are shut up in darkness, 
You are the only Light burning brighter.


[ At the same time, it is a new commandment that I am writing to you, 
     which is true in him and in you, 
because the darkness is passing away 
            and the true light is already shining]
                              - 1 John 2:8

                                                                 




"Cause all the faint lights, they left me stranded and lost. Reaching through empty pockets trying to pay my cost, I put up a fight but now it's taking it's toll. I'm waiting for something to set fire, wake up my soul.." -Steve Moakler