My only prayer is that all would see Your worth right now, Jesus. That they might gaze upon Your face and see their life is hidden in Christ and can be ignited to rise up from the ashes to live beneath the shadow of Your wings.
My prayer is that whoever is reading this might stop and pause.
They might stop and turn their gaze to the skies and consider that maybe it is all real. Maybe what you've heard about Jesus being the answer and the way really is all truth.
Jesus, the pursuit of Your love, Your cross, Your ways is what we have been created for. Apart from you it is all meaningless. If this is all there is and at the end of it all whether in 5 years or 70 we just get put down in a grave then why try?
Why love? Why risk? Why believe in anything other than ourselves?
I cannot adequately express the worth and the surpassing greatness of knowing Christ. He is the King of Kings, the Healer, the Lord over creation, the Redeemer, and the One who has died to set you free from the confines of yourself to live for His glory and renown in this world. It is His face I see on display as I reflect on the redemptive power of His love raising my life up and healing the lives of those who have turned to Him all around me.
I've been there. I have thought people followed Jesus because it was a crutch, something to cling to, and a nice additive to the "good life". How wrong I was.
Jesus, He is the One you've waited for your whole life. He is the One who will fill the gaping hole and the desire of your heart. Only Him.
You think you want an exciting life?
Try to living in a world that is a battle between the Kingdom of Light and Darkness. Place your trust in a God whose plan for you transcends anything you could plan on your own according to glory at work within you.
You want to help those around you?
Delve into the heart of Christ, the only One who can truly redeem, save, or rescue someone else from the darkness of this place. Knowing Him enables you to serve and help people in the most profound ways.
You want something to fulfill you?
Lift your face to the glory and lifter of your head, Jesus Christ, who blesses you with the fullness of His presence, His mercy, His healing, and His Spirit.
You want direction and guidance?
Seek the living God who hears you and will answer you. When you are encountered by the reality that He is alive I guarantee you won't want to flee from Him.
Tomorrow is Easter Sunday and it is not just another day. The Resurrection of Jesus Christ is an event that changed everything about our reality. Because of Jesus we are now blessed with the opportunity to choose life over death but that's just the thing... God loves us so deeply He has given us freedom and a choice. The choice to choose the Son He freely gave us that is the only One who can give us life.
Watching "The Passion of the Christ" yesterday I was struck by how deep the pain of regret is. Watching Judas betray Jesus with a kiss and then desperately try and take it all back by throwing the money back in the Pharisees' faces it stung.
Regardless of where you stand in your faith- you don't believe, don't care, don't see the importance of it all at the end of your life you will have to stand before the Father to testify about the life you lived in the time He gave you. You get one life, one shot, one try. That is it. No do overs.
I guarantee you looking in the fire of His gaze, you will want to take back every wasted moment. You will see the desperate and fiery love of God that pursued you your entire life but you were too busy or consumed with the "things" of this world to notice.
Entrusting your heart to Christ is difficult.
It is painful. People and this world resist you. You will face lies. You may have people walk out of your life or disappear...maybe they won't get it. But the thing is you will never regret a moment spent loving and pouring out your heart for Him. Nothing done in His name is ever in vain. Your reward is knowing Christ and living your life in love to honor the King.
Mark 14:3-9 reminds me that nothing is wasted. This woman poured her everything out upon Jesus and was mocked but He saw the worth. She recognized Him for who He was.
Right now, Jesus is asking you. Who do you say that He is? Is He who He said He is?
He is. I can testify to the fact that Jesus is alive and reigning now--He is truly alive. This changes absolutely everything. The life you desire is hidden within Christ and nowhere else will you find it.
May the grace of God draw you in to experience the beauty of His Kingdom, His lavished love, His adoption, His healing flood, and His resurrection power to awaken your heart to what you have been born to fulfill on this earth.
You were worth it for Him to lay His life down.
Jesus will always be worth your pursuit. Right now, He wants to know you, to speak truth over your life, and bring you into His presence. Saying yes to Him is saying yes to a God who has already said yes to you.
Worth it?
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iUUmhnOPBdE How He Loves with Matt Chandler and John Piper.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Joj2qEYa8VA Encounter Me by Citipointe Live.
Saturday, March 30, 2013
Tuesday, February 5, 2013
Swing open the gates
Swing open the gates,
I pray revival all around,
hearts to burn with the song of freedom rising deep from within the ashes.
And as I marvel, you whisper fiery words of loving discipline that press me to cry out and say something unexpected:
"Jesus, start with me."
I've only skimmed the surface of You, danced across it.
Merely flipped the pages and caught a summary.
How I need Him more.
How we all need Him more.
How can we expect others to see You? To care? To desperately want You as their God
If they don't see our own face radiating with the swelling love and blinding light of the King of Kings.
Pour out Your lifestream into our hearts,
the burning and jealous love that ransomed us from the grave,
that turned our fragmented blindness into glimpses of heavenly redemption,
that reached down into the depths of the grave and pulled us out with mighty hands
to shine a Light that changed it all.
For Your own sake shine upon us,
the desolate sanctuaries you ignite to burn for a lifetime,
never to be overcome.
I pray revival all around.
Yet my prayer begins with the heart I shakily offer to You in prayer.
Revive this heart, the only one I can truly offer at Your throne
but the one which You will use to spread the radiant truth and bells of freedom to ring.
For you care for the masses, the nations,
yet You speak tenderly to Your children.
Melodies and sonnets of tender love to the orphaned living apart from You,
Painted dreams across the blackest of skies of regret and shame,
whispering the freedom that winds its way around our chains, unlocking them in victory.
I humble myself and say:
Purify me,
change me,
mold me,
move me.
Yes, they need You even if they can't see it now
but my command is to love You with all that I have.
The overflow and steady stream of Your love will always be the source
Jesus, I pray revival.
I pray revival in this heart, in this season, with these people. For I know it is only through You that my little life might extend itself in compassion and love to blow up the smallest or largest of sparks within another.
Swing open the gates,
Start with me.
Psalm 119:19-24
I pray revival all around,
hearts to burn with the song of freedom rising deep from within the ashes.
And as I marvel, you whisper fiery words of loving discipline that press me to cry out and say something unexpected:
"Jesus, start with me."
I've only skimmed the surface of You, danced across it.
Merely flipped the pages and caught a summary.
How I need Him more.
How we all need Him more.
How can we expect others to see You? To care? To desperately want You as their God
If they don't see our own face radiating with the swelling love and blinding light of the King of Kings.
Pour out Your lifestream into our hearts,
the burning and jealous love that ransomed us from the grave,
that turned our fragmented blindness into glimpses of heavenly redemption,
that reached down into the depths of the grave and pulled us out with mighty hands
to shine a Light that changed it all.
For Your own sake shine upon us,
the desolate sanctuaries you ignite to burn for a lifetime,
never to be overcome.
I pray revival all around.
Yet my prayer begins with the heart I shakily offer to You in prayer.
Revive this heart, the only one I can truly offer at Your throne
but the one which You will use to spread the radiant truth and bells of freedom to ring.
For you care for the masses, the nations,
yet You speak tenderly to Your children.
Melodies and sonnets of tender love to the orphaned living apart from You,
Painted dreams across the blackest of skies of regret and shame,
whispering the freedom that winds its way around our chains, unlocking them in victory.
I humble myself and say:
Purify me,
change me,
mold me,
move me.
Yes, they need You even if they can't see it now
but my command is to love You with all that I have.
The overflow and steady stream of Your love will always be the source
Jesus, I pray revival.
I pray revival in this heart, in this season, with these people. For I know it is only through You that my little life might extend itself in compassion and love to blow up the smallest or largest of sparks within another.
Swing open the gates,
Start with me.
Psalm 119:19-24
Wednesday, January 2, 2013
Immerse
Drowning.
Opening for worship, the song "Forever Reign" screamed the truth out we all need to resonate and be immersed in. Forever reigning, our King has appeared and because of this, our soul can feel again. Our soul can know its worth secure in Him. The first speaker, Brian Loritz, preached the hard Truth that the gospel of Christ must never be confused with religion. The gospel states I am accepted therefore I do, not I do, therefore I am accepted.

Break out sessions
The second day there were break-out sessions with topics ranging from how to have girl/guy friendships in the Body of Christ without something more attached to it to the one I went to which was how to freely love others by the power of the Spirit. The one I attended was absolutely wonderful and proclaimed such freedom to walk in the truth and how devoting more of your time and life to Him frees you to love people more by His power. Was a great reminder our greatest call is to love and not be the Savior who rescues people!
Skill set sessions The last full day there were skill set sessions ranging from advanced evangelism, how to effectively lead a small group, healing from addiction, and how to truly change by the power of the Spirit. I attended the first option and came away with a fresh perspective on sharing my faith and it was awesome!
Amazing Grace.
And for the moment that touched the depths of my heart and stands very vividly in my memory. Before this, Mike Erre, a speaker paved the way for it, paving a very powerful message relating to identity. His main point derived from the central message of the gospel Ephesians 1 that we have already been chosen in love to be His children. Mike provided the horrifying facts behind the cultural context of this passage that explained how deformed and imperfect babies at the time were left at the top of the hill to be abandoned and eventually die. Ephesians 1 paints the picture of our beautiful God who runs to the top of the hill to the unwanted, the hurting, the empty, the sick, and provides them with permanent adoption into His family.
Delving into the profound implications of this radical idea of being chosen amidst our sin and mess, Erre chose to examine the perfectionist cloud hanging over our society. The airbrushed women, million dollar bank accounts, billion dollar Hollywood industry, and an emphasis on perfect grades, all shoving us to be immersed in the lie that we will never be "good enough", never have enough, or be satisfied as we are.
The truth He proclaimed at the end was that the deepest longing of the heart is to know we are loved in spite of the darkness within us, that there is a Father longing to wrap His arms around us and make us new.
He painted the picture of a child who has been abused his entire life and because of this picks up habits such as hiding food around the house due to his punishment which included being starved. Once he is later put in the foster care system, his new loving parents take him into their home and are grieved to find out he is still hiding food around the house as a result of the pain.
He went on saying very seriously: "You don't have to do that here. This is not like your old family. You willnever be hungry again."
Just as this child experienced a new adoption with loving parents, so have you. You now have a loving Father who has in the riches of His grace and mercy, bestowed upon you the blessing of a new title: a beloved son or daughter of the Most High King. You have a Father who will never leave nor forsake you and who offers you a new life in Him: one where you will never go hungry again.
Hearing this John 6:35 came to mind.
This is what initially came to mind as I pictured the word immersed. Someone submerged and immersed in water, drowning and gasping for breath...not exactly positive imagery.
And looking up the definition of "immerse" I found that this is one of three definitions.
The first states that it is "to cover completely in a liquid". The second is to "baptize by submerging in water" while the third and most clearly relevant one states "to engage wholly or deeply; absorb."
This is where a recollection of the past four days begins. Immerse 2012. You might say we were drowning but only in the most positive of ways :), surrounded by and sinking into the love and grace of God! :) Haha.
I had the opportunity this past week to attend Cru's Christmas conference and what an immense privilege and blessing it was. Engaging deeply in the life of Christ and being reminded of the grand invitation to step into the epic story He is telling, Immerse 2012 was a conference worth remembering. Here are some of the highlights:
I had the opportunity this past week to attend Cru's Christmas conference and what an immense privilege and blessing it was. Engaging deeply in the life of Christ and being reminded of the grand invitation to step into the epic story He is telling, Immerse 2012 was a conference worth remembering. Here are some of the highlights:

Break out sessions
The second day there were break-out sessions with topics ranging from how to have girl/guy friendships in the Body of Christ without something more attached to it to the one I went to which was how to freely love others by the power of the Spirit. The one I attended was absolutely wonderful and proclaimed such freedom to walk in the truth and how devoting more of your time and life to Him frees you to love people more by His power. Was a great reminder our greatest call is to love and not be the Savior who rescues people!
Skill set sessions The last full day there were skill set sessions ranging from advanced evangelism, how to effectively lead a small group, healing from addiction, and how to truly change by the power of the Spirit. I attended the first option and came away with a fresh perspective on sharing my faith and it was awesome!
Amazing Grace.
And for the moment that touched the depths of my heart and stands very vividly in my memory. Before this, Mike Erre, a speaker paved the way for it, paving a very powerful message relating to identity. His main point derived from the central message of the gospel Ephesians 1 that we have already been chosen in love to be His children. Mike provided the horrifying facts behind the cultural context of this passage that explained how deformed and imperfect babies at the time were left at the top of the hill to be abandoned and eventually die. Ephesians 1 paints the picture of our beautiful God who runs to the top of the hill to the unwanted, the hurting, the empty, the sick, and provides them with permanent adoption into His family.
Delving into the profound implications of this radical idea of being chosen amidst our sin and mess, Erre chose to examine the perfectionist cloud hanging over our society. The airbrushed women, million dollar bank accounts, billion dollar Hollywood industry, and an emphasis on perfect grades, all shoving us to be immersed in the lie that we will never be "good enough", never have enough, or be satisfied as we are.
The truth He proclaimed at the end was that the deepest longing of the heart is to know we are loved in spite of the darkness within us, that there is a Father longing to wrap His arms around us and make us new.
He painted the picture of a child who has been abused his entire life and because of this picks up habits such as hiding food around the house due to his punishment which included being starved. Once he is later put in the foster care system, his new loving parents take him into their home and are grieved to find out he is still hiding food around the house as a result of the pain.
He went on saying very seriously: "You don't have to do that here. This is not like your old family. You willnever be hungry again."
Just as this child experienced a new adoption with loving parents, so have you. You now have a loving Father who has in the riches of His grace and mercy, bestowed upon you the blessing of a new title: a beloved son or daughter of the Most High King. You have a Father who will never leave nor forsake you and who offers you a new life in Him: one where you will never go hungry again.
Random pictures from Indycc:
(Out in the hall before the very first session!)
(Beautiful stained glass at New Life! Power of prayer baby!)
(This is awesome!!! haha Check it out!)
(Stairs was an option when the elevators were super crowded! My friend Megan and I ran up 18 flights a few times! Good thing we survived the conference ;))
(Notes from the first speaker, Brian Loritz, The gospel- "I love you too much not to tell you." Gospel motivation.)
(Veinte coffee to kickstart the day! The line for coffee was a mile long every day...me included!)
(The Surrender sign we all put a signature on the last night!! )
(Dinner at church after outreach!! )
(Chick-fil-a was one of the many places in the food court we went to connected to the hotel! Chicken is gooooood!!!)
(Yes...there was a dancing cow!!!)
(Awesome worship leader for the retreat: Matt McCoy of Harvest Bible Chapel!)
Thursday, December 27, 2012
Rest and Revival
"In returning and rest you shall be saved; in quietness and in trust shall be your strength..." -Isaiah 30:15
Quietness, trust, stillness, peace, rest.
How simple these concepts are but I can lose a grip on them all too easily (especially being Type-A ;)
This break has been one of revelations and restoration that He knew my soul needed. I felt the need to write a few of them down and God had other plans as I sit here typing three hours later...May they shed a light for you.
Break revelations:
Maybe the real reason people have a hard time seeing Him in our world is not because He isn't there but because they were looking for a King they wouldn't recognize. Are our lives, our words, how we spend our time telling of the King whom we love or are they telling of a driving force behind a striving life? Are we living lives that are a window into the glory and heart of Christ?
Quietness, trust, stillness, peace, rest.
How simple these concepts are but I can lose a grip on them all too easily (especially being Type-A ;)
This break has been one of revelations and restoration that He knew my soul needed. I felt the need to write a few of them down and God had other plans as I sit here typing three hours later...May they shed a light for you.
Break revelations:
Subconsciously on a deeper level I think I believe that God's love can be earned. How simple the resounding noise in heaven rings that it is "by grace that you have been saved" when we have the ears and heart to receive it.
Productivity and efficiency can overwhelm and swallow up the beauty of the present. It can make us believe even for a second that it is human energy plus God that yields fruit when it in reality it is Christ alone.
Living life to please people will suffocate you. It never satisfy or fulfill like we trick ourselves into believing it will. It is only through living for the affirmation of Jesus will we ever be at rest. God is my judge and yours.
"For am I seeking the approval of man, or of God? Or am I trying to please man? If I were still trying to please man, I would not be a servant of Christ." -Galatians 1:10
Sometimes you have to lose yourself to find the true self once lost. Buried beneath the expectations of others, the condemning voice of the self, and the flurry of business lies the awakening heartbeat of God who longs for your revival of heart, soul, and being.
"Whoever finds his life will lose it, and whoever loses his life for my sake will find it." -Matthew 10:39
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We maximize and minimize ourselves.
Inflating ourselves to more than we are pridefully, we also minimize ourselves to a worthless spec that could not be redeemed. Both of these lack the very core and truth of the gospel of grace and forgiveness. When we are not enough, He is. When our sin was large enough to swallow our lives, He gave us life and covered it. When we fall, Grace can pick us up. Unbelievably weak by our own strength, we live by the power of God in Him. We fall, He rises.
"For he was crucified in weakness, but lives by the power of God. For we are also weak in him, but in dealing with you we will live with him by the power of God." -2 Corinthians 13:4
We serve a dynamic and wonderfully beautiful God but how often do we limit who we are as His light bearers? Do we box ourselves into one particular area of life that we label as our ministry and neglect to come to Him in prayer for other areas or strengths we have yet to have the eyes to see? How often we overlook the fact that merely being present in someone's life can proclaim the love of Christ to that one person.
Ephesians 3:20 He is able to do abundantly more through us according to His glory.
It is all too easy to project the image of who we want people to be onto someone when in reality this can suffocate the very growth the Lord is doing within someone to make them into who He is making them to be.
2 Corinthians 5:17 In Christ you are a new creation. You are intricately crafted, fantastically unique, and designed to bring the love of Christ into this world but the soul sitting next to you may have a radically different call, way of being, and way to love this world than you do. Choose to love and embrace that He will reach this world in ways beyond your comprehension through those around you, it's not up to you.
Love understands our pain.
Understands betrayal, opposition, feeling alone, love, having to muster strength we don't feel we possess. He walked this life, took on flesh, and experienced the world as you and I do. I was struck to the core by this when I came upon a song called "Love Does". Brandon Heath sings, "Nobody knows why your heart is broken Nobody cries while your prayers are going up But Love does Nobody walks on the road you’re paving Nobody sees all the souls you’re saving Oh, but Love does." Nothing done for His name is ever in vain and to follow Him is to trust in the strength of His Spirit at work in you and in the souls of those around you.
God can handle our burdens, our doubts, our hurt.
Pretending all is fine might fool even those closest to you but not Him. He is strong enough to handle your blatant honesty- whether you believe in Him and are doubting what He is doing or whether you are struggling to believe He is who He said He is. He desires truth in the inward being (Psalm 51) even if that may mean coming clean before Him. Walking in the darkness of your own private bitterness or denial of old wounds withdraws yourself from true healing.
"If we say we have fellowship with him while we walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. But if we walk in the light as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another and the blood of Jesus His Son cleanses us from all our sin." -1 John 1:6-7
Love understands our pain.
Understands betrayal, opposition, feeling alone, love, having to muster strength we don't feel we possess. He walked this life, took on flesh, and experienced the world as you and I do. I was struck to the core by this when I came upon a song called "Love Does". Brandon Heath sings, "Nobody knows why your heart is broken Nobody cries while your prayers are going up But Love does Nobody walks on the road you’re paving Nobody sees all the souls you’re saving Oh, but Love does." Nothing done for His name is ever in vain and to follow Him is to trust in the strength of His Spirit at work in you and in the souls of those around you.
God can handle our burdens, our doubts, our hurt.
Pretending all is fine might fool even those closest to you but not Him. He is strong enough to handle your blatant honesty- whether you believe in Him and are doubting what He is doing or whether you are struggling to believe He is who He said He is. He desires truth in the inward being (Psalm 51) even if that may mean coming clean before Him. Walking in the darkness of your own private bitterness or denial of old wounds withdraws yourself from true healing.
"If we say we have fellowship with him while we walk in darkness, we lie and do not practice the truth. But if we walk in the light as he is in the light, we have fellowship with one another and the blood of Jesus His Son cleanses us from all our sin." -1 John 1:6-7
Fear can steal our remembrance of what has already been done on the cross, what has been given to us in the Spirit, and the hope we have in Christ. Fear can make us forget that ultimately the worst thing would be for someone to be outside of God's will not pursuing it.
His sacrifice on the cross must be brought to the forefront of our minds daily in order for us to persevere and rest our lives in the hands of Love. It is not God that changes but our "receptivity" to His love as Sara Young explains. We must pray for the eyes and heart to receive this unfading love coming down from the "Father of Lights with whom there is no variation or shadow due to change." -James 1:17-18
His mercies are new every morning (Lamentations 3:22).
In His presence there is riches beyond compare (Psalm 16:11) and the healing hands of restoration. Every morning is the dawning of new insight and truth whether this comes through trials, joy, or a day of rest.
Laying everything down at His feet is where you will find your revival.
In surrender and yielding yourself to Him, He is faithful to answer. The heavens will open with glory, healing, and fullness beyond compare.
"Bring the full tithe into the storehouse, that there may be food into the storehouse, that there may be food in my house. And thereby put me to the test, says the Lord of hosts, if I will not open the windows of heaven for you and pour down for you a blessing until there is no more need." -Malachi 3:10
Following Him, there is so much to learn.
We will never "arrive" or ever have enough of this God. To grow is to open our lives to be touched by more of His Spirit, His grace, and His refining truths.
"I still have many things to say to you, but you cannot bear them now." -John 16:12
Humility is found when we have the open arms to receive His grace. Shooting down your worth is a slap in the face to God who sacrificed Himself to die for and raise you to life in Him. It is fake humility to preach your shortcomings more than you preach the grace that saved you.
"But I do not account my life of any value nor as precious to myself, if only I may finish my course and the ministry that I received from the Lord Jesus, to testify to the gospel of the grace of God." -Acts 20:24
Growing older, we can lose the wonder and awe.
We can loosen our grip on knowing the Savior, rejoicing in what He has done, and remembering the life-changing power in the name of Jesus. Amidst the worldly struggles, trials, and pain and even in the details of ministry or our faith, a hardened and bitter heart can be the poison of the spiritual life. We must put our minds fully set on the hope of Christ and heavenly things (Colossians 3:2) It is only by grace that we delve deeper and maintain a hold on the promise. Trust in Him to guard what you have been given each and every day and to grow up every way into Him.
"O Timothy, guard the deposit entrusted to you...Grace be with you."
-1 Timothy 6:20.
And finally, love. The only thing that matters is love at the end of the day.
Love working itself out through faith
Love being the melody behind the words you sing.
Love being the flame within your heart and the courage for you to stand.
Choosing to love Him first, love others, and sometimes the most difficult, to love yourself because you were worth it for Him to die for.
In His arms you will be tightly held to journey through the waves of life but you must choose to remain close to His heartbeat each step. Love is longing for each of us to fall back into His arms to return whether it is for the fifth time this week or for the every first embrace. We all need a second chance, following Him already or not, and it is up to us to choose to set our gaze to Him and draw near for He is waiting.
You are the beloved and precious child of the King of Kings and He longs to bring you the rest and revival found within His promise to love and keep you all of your days.
"Therefore the Lord waits to be gracious to you, and therefore he exalts himself to show mercy to you." -Isaiah 30:18
"You are the hand that catches my fall
You are the friend that answers my call
You are my day, You are my night
You are my love and all of my life
You are the grace that covers my sin
You're everything the beginning and end
You have my soul, my heart and my mind
You have my love and all of my life."
You are the friend that answers my call
You are my day, You are my night
You are my love and all of my life
You are the grace that covers my sin
You're everything the beginning and end
You have my soul, my heart and my mind
You have my love and all of my life."
-"Always Forever" by Phil Wickam
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9vXktjT98Q4 "Always forever"
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9vXktjT98Q4 "Always forever"
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