Dear True Love

"Dear true love,
I'm a writer without any words,
I'm a story that nobody heard 
When I'm without you.
I am a voice,
I am a voice without any sound.
I'm a treasure map that nobody found
When I'm without you.
Dear true love,
I'm a lantern without any light,
I'm a boxer much too afraid to fight
When I'm without you.."
-Sleeping at Last


"Love Me. Trust Me. Seek Me.."

All along, You whispered. You yelled, I closed my ears and pretended I was listening. You tapped me on the shoulder, I refused to turn. And yet here I find You.

On my knees, filling my soul, widening my gaze, placing a burning fire within me that has rained down more joy upon my life than ever before. Opening my heart up to You fully and completely You have begun the healing process, speaking Truth to crash over my wounds in healing waves. You have spoken and I have chosen to listen.

"Silence, be still My child.."
Why is this so hard for me as a Christian to swallow? Do I really believe that I can save this world or even myself?

You have brought me from a constant state of motion to a standstill. Stopping mid-stride, You whisper for me to put my hand over my heart. Your Kingdom purpose beats through my veins and pushes out the weeds. You clear me out, bringing me to my knees to be emptied and blessed with more fullness than I could imagine.

Lord, You are so unbelievably faithful.
Oh, how I see it now and continue to be humbled by Your love flowing through my heart like a river.
Mercy and grace drenching my small existence from every angle, quenching my thirst.

You have silenced my voice and are teaching me the art of trusting You, of letting You in. You are revealing to me how to enter into Your rest, to lay at Your feet and wait expectantly for the voice of the Savior to speak me into motion. 

You consistently turn Your face upon this unworthy and undeserving girl who needs to be bound to Your heart daily. You constantly lavish grace that abounds in the depths of my heart.

You beckon me forth.
Deeper into Your Kingdom's cause, my passionate flame for this bleeds deeper than anything I have ever experienced in my 19 years on this earth. You are allowing me to shine into this world Love Himself who has brought me out of the pit of emptiness and into the fullness of grace.

I am deeply astounded, Lord. I worship and praise because Your love satisfies every piece of who I am.
I want to chase this cross with everything I am for everyone around me to know the Love that chases after them every single day.  God, just as You long for me, You long for them.

You fill my lips with words of splendor and truth,
You script adventure in between the day to day schedule,
You shine out of the depths of a heart renewed 
You grant me the privilege of shining You every step of my journey.
Thank You, Jesus. 

For unanswered prayers, 
for answered prayers, 
for leading me in my weakness,
for trying times that break me down,
for equipping me in Your Truth as You lead me,
for the mountaintop moments of Your praise,
for being humbled into seeing my own frailties and limits,
for loneliness that set me to seek You and know You more, 
for beautiful friendships singing of Your Truth and praise,
for the blessing of serving children and showing them Your compassion, 
for the privilege of being disciplined and sharpened by Your words,
for being refined by Your flame, 
for finding daily there is so much more of You to behold every single day,
for the immense blessing of blessing others with the radical love that has been shown to me,
for the joys of sharing a relationship that deepens, grows, and tests me every single day,
for revelations You give that rock my heart, leaving me smiling up at You.

Your plans and thoughts for me and for every person reading this outnumber the skies. You desire to give us Your person in fullness sending Your Holy Spirit to crash down upon us and fill every inch of our lives. You have a divine jealousy for our hearts, our minds, our very souls. May we give it to You joyfully and freely-knowing when we have the courage to come with empty hands You will shower and lavish our lives with more of You than we could ever dream of.

You, Lord, are everything I could ever ask for...and so much more. 
Be My love, My divine purpose, My best friend, and the Leader of my life.